Hated

Doing wrong things and having done it without realising it sucks. What sucks more is actually realising it only after the person is hurt and is hating u like mad. 

It may not be intentional, but sometimes, when the timing is not right, everything and everyone seems to be despising u. I get that feeling a lot of times. And sometimes i get so frightened of it that crazy thoughts always come into my head. 

But im too afraid to face those whom i have hurt, too afraid to even be a few metres away from them. Both were good friends and mu stupidity and bad temper caused me this. I cant blame anyone.... But yet i cant seem to reason to myself that i shud make a change. 

I need help... A lot of help... But idk who to approach to help