Thought of the day

Sometimes, you make decisions in life that can have a variety of effects on different people.

Sometimes, these effects may or may not last, may or may not leave a mark in someone's heart, may or may not be a deep scar.

Sometimes, you wish you could turn back tine to fix these mistakes and not have to face uncomfortable consequence you need to face in time to come.

Sometimes, you'd wish you had telepathy that can tell you what the other person really feels. So that the truth is not hidden.

Sometimes, you hope that things will get better despite the pitfall you have made on the way.

Sometimes, things just don't go the way you want them to. They either stay the same or become worse.

Sometimes, you would also wish for a clear answer or a solution to solve this, and most times there isn't one, even if there is, it may not be as easy as it is said to be.

Sometimes, you just really feel terrible, alone, and full of grief and regrets. You would sometimes go to extents and would be willing do so many things just to make things go back to the way they were.

Most times, its impossible.
Regret is inevitable, but making a change is possible.

Have a nice day everyone.

Sometimes dreams just dont come true...

Many people may tell you, as long as you work hard for it dreams and wishes will come true.

But it doesnt always apply. Sometimes, your wishes, no matter how hard you try, it just never comes true. Never. Or maybe its because it just never went the way it expected it to be. It may not turn out exactly like how fairytales or movies show. That special happy ending where everything turns out right. Its a lies.

Reality is a big downturn. Sometimes, you just have to learn to let go, and try and make ur life a little simpler and more fulfilling to get the day over and done with.

Dream, but dun dream too big or too detailed. 

Did i do it right?

Sometimes... when life gives you test, major test, and you have to choose between two very important options that will affect your life drastically... what do you base it on?

1. Your happiness?
2. The morally right decision?
3. Other people's feelings and opinions?
4. Give up on both options?

For those who read my blog, its true... i am going through a phase in life like that now, and it seems that... i cant really based my decision on anything solid... sometimes i just wished someone could give me the right answer, or that i can just completely leave it out of my mind... but i cant... and i dont know how...

Confused? very...

Imagine, one day, someone suddenly enters into ur life, and seems like the two of you can click instantly and become the best of friends. The both of you enjoy each other's company, a lot. you can talk all day without getting bored of tired of one another, and call on the phone just for fun. Doesn't it sound amazing?

But then one day, that person confesses to you. At first you were thinking, maybe it was just a joke. Maybe it was just a friendly greeting like : Hey i like you ( as a friend). As time passes by, you realize it wasnt a joke at all... and to make things worse, you are already attached. You know you should already stop this relationship from going on but, you guys are like best of friends, and just ending it that way would suck. But you still had to tell that person.

When you did, it was cool at first, everything was normal. But soon that person start saying things like: im afraid i cant control myself. And then you start to realize how deep that person's love is for you, and at this point, you really pity that person. The amount of courage this person took to confess, yet knowing that it would definitely be a rejection....

Days passed, and all of a sudden, this person stops talking to you. This person ignores all your messages, you calls, and every mean of communication. The more you try to talk to them again, the more that person distances from you. To the point where you really breakdown... and realizing, you just lost a very close friend. That person's reason for leaving: i dun wanna burden you with my feelings, you should just concentrate on the one you are attached to now.

Your mind is only filled with worrying about that person, the way that person tells u :i like you. The things that the both of you have done... soon you realize, how much that person actually means to you, and in such a short period of time, can leave such a great impact in your life.

Then you realize, you have actually fallen for this person too. But it took you longer to realize and its too late now... that person has left. And when you have to make a decision, between the one you are already attached to and the new person, you actually find it very hard to choose a path. you have not told that person about your feelings either. So you gave up on trying to get with the new person, to continue the journey with your attached partner. Yet, you are paranoid about what to do, to choose to stick to the one you are already with or follow the new person...

However, as days pass, the more you are not use to the new person's absence. You can't do anything either. Why is it so hard to make a choice? you ask yourself over and over again. But, you just cant make a decision...

What should the person do...

The Problem with Big Boobs

Not many asian people have the "luxury" to have big chest. Many a times girls without get jealous or do things in hopes of getting them: botox, plastic surgeries, push up bras, etc. Even boys who have friends that have a female partner who has them can only be in envy.

Well, i, for one who has them, really really REALLY do not want them.

I don't really understand, because honestly, other than a nice S-shaped figure, what else is good about big boobs?

These are just some problems that i personally face:

1. Choosing bra

Choosing bras is NVR easy. Why? Simply because almost every nice looking bra with cute designs and pattern are all either too small a cup or too small a chest size. I have to go to at least 5 different bra shops just to find one that looks decent enough to wear. 

What is worst is that most of the time even the colour that a busty bra has available is black, white and nude. What kind of colour choice is that?

2. Getting the correct clothes

Sure sure, people always say busty girls look good in everything. 

But hey, if you are living in a country where majority of the girls ( no offense intended ) are not having the same/similar bust size, you can't find many clothes because the shop cater to the majority. Which means its a disadvantage for people with huge boobs. 

3. CLEAVAGE

Don't deny it boys! Most of you LOVE girls with cleavages. Those are probably the first things that boys always look at when looking at a girl. Its not our fault that we girls with bigger chest tend to grab the boys' attention, most of the time we didn't even ask for it to be like that. 

Cleavage makes other girls* have certain impressions on us:

1. We are attention seeking

2. We probably have done botox or something to make our bust bigger.

3. We are show offs.

Whereas for guys*:

1. Oh her boyfriend must be so lucky

2. Those boobs must be HUGE. 

*Not applicable to all, i'm not gonna generalize. 

So there you have it, my reasons for why big boobs are such a trouble. 

Hope you guys liked it. 

Mistakes, who is ever perfect?

It doesn't matter whether you are a rich parent's child or not, neither does it matter if you have had many experience or not at a certain skill in life. We ALL make mistakes.

Mistakes vary, it can be big ones where law and regulations are implemented, or it can be small ones where just a little sympathy and forgiveness is needed.

But sometimes, small ones can get out of hand and you may find yourself in the middle, where people find it harder to forgive you with an open heart.

Most people who have experienced being the victim will know, after that one mistake, people find it harder to trust you. People start avoiding you, they start to change the way they interact with you . Then slowly, the distance gets further, the times you interact with these people will shorten. When you start to notice, you'll realize that good relationships are gone.

Despite that, one must always look on the bright side and make a difference in your life. That's what i have always believed.

Although your careless mistakes may have lead to a partial downfall in your life, you need to realise that you must never let that hold you down. No matter how seemingly impossible that may be, always hold on to that little bit of hope and dream. With a little push with courage, overcome that obstacle. Forget about the horrid past that has happened, you cant do about it now can you? So move on, start afresh or start to make it your step to achieve that forgiveness.

Tell yourself: It will be alright. 

Punching bags

Sometimes do you feel like life always tries to make you fall and never lets you get back up no matter how hard you try? The friends you thought were friends turn out to be someone who uses you to throw tantrums at every tiny thing you do. Life suddenly bombards you with so many jobs to do and you cant keep up? Yeap going thru that phase of life rite now. Everything just keeps piling up none stop. And sometimes when you are at a point where you really have no idea where to go! It bangs you against a wall and this wall doesnt help you knock some sense, it makes you feel more pain and you still gain nothing! When im stuck in life and dunno who to go to, i sometimes wish that fairy godmothers do exist to save me once in a while. 

Hated

Doing wrong things and having done it without realising it sucks. What sucks more is actually realising it only after the person is hurt and is hating u like mad. 

It may not be intentional, but sometimes, when the timing is not right, everything and everyone seems to be despising u. I get that feeling a lot of times. And sometimes i get so frightened of it that crazy thoughts always come into my head. 

But im too afraid to face those whom i have hurt, too afraid to even be a few metres away from them. Both were good friends and mu stupidity and bad temper caused me this. I cant blame anyone.... But yet i cant seem to reason to myself that i shud make a change. 

I need help... A lot of help... But idk who to approach to help