Birthday!!!

Birthdays go and come like every single day. You will feel like there is nothing special at all until someone comes to you and tell you: hey its your birthday:). Always thinking that it was a bother, i finally felt the attention for so long. There are still people other than my close friends that still wish me happy birthday. To some, replying to these wihes on facebook or twitter or even whatsapp might be a bother and trouble because they have too much to reply, to me every single one is dear to me. Its one of the small things that really make my life so much more fulfilling to live. 

Love

Thought of the day.

Cyberbullying? 

Have you ever been cyberbullied? If yes, i know how you feel. 

There was a period of time where i was cyberbullied. Everything seemed as if it was a nightmare. But now that i look at that bully again. He(she) is still cyberbullying. 

And there i was thinking: can you please get a life? He(she) is just bullying as many people as they can to satisfy themselves. Is it so thrilling watching other people suffer? Calling others fat and not pretty doesn't really make you any better for being such a jerk and douche. I really don't get these people. 

Quote of the day

"love means never having to say you are sorry." -love rain

One of my favourite quotes ever:)! And one of my favourite drama too^^! YOONA FIGHTING!! 

Lonely...

Its really been quite weird for me to feel alone like this... My bf is busy working, which conveniently leaves me to be on my own... Which is something that i am completely not used to anymore... Its just... A lonely feeling 

Old friends!

Met up with my old buddies today. I cant say how much i miss them!!! It was so enjoyable to get back the feeling of friends when u are seperated from them for so long after being pushed into a new environment with no new friends at all that hang out with you. Have you guys ever experienced that feeling before? 

Thought of the day:

There will always be a scenario where you will be targeted by many people who do not support your point of view. It will always be at these points of time where i stone and become speechless on how to convince them. Is the only way to solve this is for me to give in? Isn't there some other way? 

New craze!

This song is stuck on my head man! 

Lesson learnt

Many criticisism were targeted to me today, but on a personal scale i felt that it was necessary. I learnt a huge major lesson today and i cant thank my teamates enough. They have drilled the fact into me that trying to escape from ur own mistakes is not the wisest decision to make, but rather its something you should take in and analyse where you have gone wrong rather than pushing it to others. 

So finally i gave in and absorbed all their critics and told myself to move on and improve that part of me and prove myself and others wrong of those critics in the future. 

I guess this is going to be a major turning point for me. 

Demoralized

Sometimes its not about the way ppl think of you that you get demoralized by, because most of the time you can't read what people are thinking. However, it is the way people treat you and talk about you that makes you demoralized and lose a lot of faith and confidence. That is one of things that always causes me to tumble from my flight of confidence. Due to the things people say about me or to me, i will lose that moment of joy and get cowered over by depression and the feeling of being looked down on as useless... Anyone can relate to this? 

Thought of the week

Its been a long and tiring week for me man... JC life is really not easy. 
Yet it makes it tougher for me as i do not have many people to rely on. 
You all know how it is when you have a friend to help you out? Well, i don't.

Not that i don't want to but most of the time i feel like things are just not going the right way and i always screw things up by accident. Sometimes the things that others say really affect me and i feel really down because it these words. I feel really ashamed of myself. 

So here is something my senior said to me to cheer me on:
" Seek others' input on how you are showing-up in your leadership path. Ask:"How am I doing?" It takes humility to ask such questions, and even more humility to consider the answer." 

And i guess that's how its going to work for me. :)

(song) Dizzla Dizzla: Remember

This is one of my most favorite R&B song by Dizzla Dizzla. 

Its called "Remember".

Its just so catchy and soothing, you can't hate it :).

Love

Love is really a very troubling thing.

 When you want it, it does not show. But when you don't want it, it appears everywhere.

 Sometimes i really wonder how is it possible for me to have had such a long relationship maintained when everyday its all just ups and downs.